Life, the Universe, and Something More

  It seems to me that no matter what, change is constantly a part of my life.  No big surprise, as that's the only constant to the universe.  I have noticed, however, that despite change being ever-present, it does tend to fall into patterns.  It's these patterns that tend to get discouraging for me, sometimes throwing brick walls in my path and making me question everything I have been doing.  As Randy Pausch said in The Last Lecture, the brick walls are only there to keep everyone else out... to prove how badly you want something.  And Richard Bach, in his book Illusions, said that there is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands... we seek problems because we need their gifts.  Even with those gems of wisdom, it leaves little comfort in the here-and-now where I reside.

  It's also frustrating that I'm such a creative person, with music, writing, cooking, comedy, even designing worlds for video games, that I can't seem to find a job in those fields.  I'm whining about it in the hopes that someone I know may be able to refer me to someone they may know in the field I want to get into.   I have so many great ideas and such a hard time focusing my attention on one of them, for fear of missing out on another opportunity.  Worse than that, it is in the creative fields that it is hardest to make money on a consistent basis, especially before you are established.

  It could drive a Wookiee to drink diet soda.


 I'm doing what I can to avoid discouragement and to concentrate on what I can work on - currently, a cookbook for single guys to impress their chosen mate when they're afraid they'll burn ice cream.  Please let me know if you want to try some of the recipes - I need people to sample and try to cook using my directions.  I've also been recording music and doing what I can to make a demo disc.  I may have stumbled across some musicians willing to jam with an old fuddyduddy such as myself.
  Regardless of the dilemmas and underemployment (my job decided to schedule me 1 day for the entire month), I am happy.  Stressed, but happy.  It's the stress that helps me focus my creativity to a laserlike beam that will guide me through all the turbulence and strife.